losing your head
Surrender: Deep Unclenching, Acceptance, Unconditional Letting Go
“Deep Unconditional Surrender to Her is the Only way through”
In this Sutra I explore the topic of Surrender – which is the really the beginning and end of the Spiritual Journey. Nothing, nothing shifts without the ability to deeply unclench the strong hold of the egoic body-mind. The faster one learns surrender, the less resistance, and the path flows like a clear flowing river.
The Journey itself is the pilgrimage from “head” to “heart”. The journey from self-identification as a person with a “story” to becoming rooted in That which is Pure Love – Expansive – Silent – Present and Unfathomable. The mind can never perceive this Divine Love – it is a felt experience that is happening “Now”. It can only be described as Vast Empty Silence.
What is asked to be surrendered is the false ideas, beliefs, opinions, attachments, neediness, control and the ossified conditioning that makes up our human story. What is embraced is “no – thingness” – pure Awareness and Love embodied in a human form…. Pure Being embracing Pure Becoming… Pure Awareness embracing Pure Creativity – Shiva embracing Shakti – Christ embracing the Magdalene.
One of the most potent keys in the pilgrimage of surrender is deep unclenching of the body-mind – a deep relaxation to what is. You become soft and yielding, open and receptive, trusting and loyal to the Truth that exists within. You learn to lean into the invisible and allow its perfume, its fragrance to surround you, cocoon you in its Love – which is none other than who you are.
In deep receptivity – that is untethered from the noise of the mind – we receive the Grace which is ours to keep – our birthright – the deepest Love that we can know and in this we are free to be…We realize that what we have been searching for has been looking out of our eyes all the time patiently waiting for us to be present. We realize that we are Her temple – the Temple of the living Mother in human form.
“Become the Living Temple”
In order to flow like a stream of living water there comes a time when we realise that the moment has arrived where what is required of us is to voluntarily to cut off our heads. In the Tantric tradition this is portrayed by the Goddess Chinnamasta – one of the Ten Tantric Wisdom Goddesses.
“Chinnamasta – the Goddess who offers up Her own Head”
“Having cut off her head, the goddess is able to offer everything to those who need it”
“Give yourself utterly…Even though the head itself must be given, why should you weep over it?” Kabir
Sally Kempton in her book “Awakening Shakti” tells the story of spontaneous awakening of English writer Douglas Harding. In his book “On Having no Head” – Harding describes a realization he had while trekking in the Himalayas…where he spontaneously had the experience of losing the sense of having a head – “Instead of feeling his “self” to be contained inside the small round circle of his skull, he was pure seeing, pure perceiving. His awareness was open to whatever arose, and everything felt as if it were arising inside him. Mountains, sky, his own body existed seamlessly inside a single awareness that included his physical self but also totally transcended it. With the disappearance of his head, he had also lost his personal ego. He was self-less: thought free, fully open, one with the universe around him.”
The question remains – do we have the courage to be that radical – offering our ego identity into the fire of illumination. Each of us will answer this question in a different way at different points on our pilgrimage, from head to heart, to complete embodiment. Who are we without that sense of personal identity – our self image, our accomplishments, our possessions, our education, our story? When all of that falls away – what is left? Who are we then?
To enter the river of life and enjoy its depths, its gifts, its peace and its freshness – we have to be naked. Naked of all that we are – to arise as Her from the depths of our Beingness – we have to let go. This is the secret of surrender. “Entering the Womb of Love is a striptease of the soul, letting go, stripping down completely, and surrendering into the vast naked wildness of the Feminine Dimension – knowing that we are naked and renewing in every moment, and that we cannot control this flow of life, only ride along in passionate wonderment and innocence. The moment we try to stop the flow, cover up, own or control anything, we begin the death of separation from life” WOMB AWAKENING.
She has been yearning to undress
herself forever, to show you Shiva inside her own heart.
Of course She gets dressed again quickly;
she knows that it’s not proper to walk around with no clothes,
but the fabric is so thin–
can you feel it?
Just a deep breath, a laughter, a roar.
A letting go–
and the moment opens like a rose
“Shiva in Her Heart”
The Teachings of the Scarlet Sutra is dedicated to the Red Goddess Lalita, Mary Magdalene, the Yoginis and The Red Priestesses from all Traditions throughout the Ages.
Prem Moodaley Copyright 2018
Sally Kempton – Awakening Shakti – Published by Sounds True 2013
Dr Azra and Seren Bertrand – Womb Awakening – Initiatory Wisdom from the Creatrix of All Life – Published by Bear and Co/Inner Traditions – 2017
Poem by Chameli Ardagh – Awakening Woman Institute